Too LOUD

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I spoke loud with my red dress on,

The one that had the split on the sides.

Yeah, that one.

The one inviting you to touch my inner thighs,

The one that made you do it.

It was me, I wore that red dress.

How rude of me to speak so loud,

As I rotated my hips while adding numbers to my age.

You watched me crawl until I walked,

Then bought my silence, with each secret advance.

Bordering on my very own stalker,

Your presence was ever near,

Always there.

From start to finish.

My insensitivity was too loud

When I chose to keep my body,

Free from a baby.

Not wanting to suckle a child,

In the midst of chaos and destruction.

When I said yes to the scalpel,

Drugs that were considered ammunition.

When you took away my freedom

Denying me rights with one resolution.

Saying no to society, taking back my power.

I was too loud!

When the food wasnt right, You slapped me.

The children made noise, I was punished.

I asked for my protector, and you gave me an abuser.

When I begged for forgiveness for the woman you encouraged.

When I worked, I failed, you took away my worth.

I gave my time you took my energy.

All because.....

I was too loud!

Too aggressive!

Too strong!

Too noisy!

Yet, every moment it was I and never You that made a sound.

I stand in silence because I was too loud.

Makistar

My name is Makistar. I am a Body Love Advocate and Coach from Trinidad and Tobago. I help guide persons to the point of self love and confidence in themselves. We are not taught to love ourselves. We are sometimes jokingly told about our size and weight in a society that does not accept that all bodies differ just as our DNA.

I am in no way advocating obesity but beauty isn’t about weight and size. It’s about love and care and how we treat ourselves and others.

One thing I tell clients from the beginning, Be True To You. We may see it as selfishness, but it’s living and speaking Your Truth that we can start the journey to acceptance and self love.

I believe that as I continue to help others reclaim their self love and body acceptance, it can help redefine our ideologies when it comes to our bodies. Knowing that we can only be responsible for ourselves and not for others.

https://www.instagram.com/themakistar/
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