A Church Girl Gone Rogue

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A church girl gone rogue

I was always part of the rebellious ones

No matter how many times you tried

To baptize me with tongue lashings

Or gave me lashings from anything

You could lay your hands on.

 

You said right

I said left

You said straight

I said crooked

You said inside

I said no way

You said dolls

I said trucks.

 

My brothers you allowed

To go their own way

You gave them much more leeway

But when the time came I chose my way.

 

That’s why I never loved church

or anything religious

That’s why I broke away

Because with your silence you seemed to say

“Boys will be boys

But girls must never go rogue”.

A church girl gone rouge

I was always the rebellious one

No matter how many times

You tried to get me to pray the psalms

Or see the lion as a lamb. 

Anella D. Shillingford

Anella D. Shillingford is a Dominican writer and poet. She published her debut poetry collection, Bonfire, in 2019. In July 2021, she was featured at the Bocas Lit Fest. Her work also appears in Montage Dominik (2021), an anthology compiled by the Waitukubuli Writers Association and published by River Ridge Press.

In 2021, she was awarded for her essay “When Home Is No Longer Home” by the Caribbean Climate Justice Project; the piece was later published in the anthology Where Is the Justice.

Her second collection, Of Rivers and Oceans (2022), further established her voice, with selected poems featured in the Caribbean online magazine Acalabash.

Her latest project, Feels Like Home: A Literary Mixtape (2025), explores the nuances of sound and home through a blend of poetry and prose.

Anella believes that words are heirlooms. Her work explores women’s rights, queerness, the environment, Caribbean history, heritage, and identity. Her writing has also been published by Intersect ANU.

She regularly shares her work on Substack: https://anella.substack.com

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