I Can’t Stop

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This is a poem that I wrote to express my experience of witnessing the Palestinian genocide, as a brown mother of three daughters.

My eyes are locked on my screen

scrolling through updates

and time spills away

like so much blood

on our helpless hands—

image after image of ash, of smoke

of babies broken and split

of mothers wailing and wailing

and I refuse to look away,

refuse to give away

my humanity—I wail

with the mothers, not knowing

what I would do

if my own children

were murdered,

not knowing

the level of rage and grief

swelling inside me, volcanic

and uncontainable—

if I would survive

if I would continue on

or if I would consume

the entire world

with my molten scream.


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Leslieann Hobayan

Leslieann Hobayan (she/her) is a Filipina-American poet, essayist, activist, mom, and host of Spiritual Grit — a podcast at the intersection of spirituality, social justice, and activism. She is the author of the chapbook, Divorce Papers: A Slow Burn (Finishing Line Press, 2023) and her poems have appeared in various journals, including The Rumpus and Asteri(x). Her work aims to break the silences of generational trauma and believes that writing our stories are key to collective healing and ultimate liberation.

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